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    Tuesday, October 31, 2006

    ASHES

    We put Little Ann to sleep a couple of weeks ago because she had cancer and I felt it was time. Yes, I made the decision and I am not sorry for it, maybe it could have been put off a few days, maybe she was already too uncomfortable and I should have done it earlier. I did the best I could for her.

    Now her ashes are waiting for me over at Dr. Barnard's office; they called and left a message. I found it hard to go over and get them - a container coming home. I had taken a dog and watched her nose around outside the clinic unaware that the minutes of her life were ticking away. That is a hard thing to watch: the last sniff, the last little walk, the last wags of the tail . . . you know, but she doesn't suspect.

    Then it occured to me perhaps she thought I wasn't coming for her - not that the ashes would think, but that somewhere her spirit was watching. It is in my head that maybe she is thinking, "They don't care." So, I will go today and bring her ashes home . . . her spirit, I hope is romping at the fairgrounds, curling up on the sofa, infuriatingly barking at the mailman, trying to sneak out the door and secure in our abiding love.

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